Whenever I have to fill out forms at the doctors office there’s always a question along the lines of “Do you ever feel as if you are operated by a motor”, and while that’s a weird way to phrase it I think I get what they mean. School has me so tired lately that when I get home even things I love to do becomes a chore. I feel sluggish and unmotivated. Going through the motions, like I’m motor operated.
Edit: this is okay though. It’ll pass, hopefully. Just gotta get through the next 4 weeks until the cycle restarts.
451.14 days ago
Nov 3, 2021 - 2:39 AM
I feel as though I am detaching from reality.
451.136 days ago
Nov 3, 2021 - 2:45 AM
hang in there, fellas
i feel for ya
451.134 days ago
Nov 3, 2021 - 2:48 AM
Life is good (for now). I got my first acceptance letter (or more specifically, email) from a university I applied to today!
450.082 days ago
Nov 4, 2021 - 4:02 AM
450.081 days ago
Nov 4, 2021 - 4:04 AM
445.409 days ago
Nov 8, 2021 - 8:11 PM
445.398 days ago
Nov 8, 2021 - 8:27 PM
445.345 days ago
Nov 8, 2021 - 9:44 PM
445.313 days ago
Nov 8, 2021 - 10:29 PM
depressed yet happy at the same time
445.232 days ago
Nov 9, 2021 - 12:27 AM
super wild how humans can do that.
I am also depressed and happy.
a beaten porcelain doll,
reassembled with discount glue,
sitting on a shelf, ready to fall apart at the slightest inconvenience.
my life is good. I am well looked after. it has not always been this way.
I am embarrassed that I still write like a depressed teenager.
445.224 days ago
Nov 9, 2021 - 12:38 AM
445.188 days ago
Nov 9, 2021 - 1:30 AM
I feel like I very mush so would like to unalive
445.185 days ago
Nov 9, 2021 - 1:34 AM
call 800-273-8255
you arent alone, samsung
445.179 days ago
Nov 9, 2021 - 1:43 AM
when i am right, i am actually wrong
445.17 days ago
Nov 9, 2021 - 1:56 AM
same
just take a look at my last ask
445.168 days ago
Nov 9, 2021 - 1:59 AM
hey man, sorry to hear that. don't give up okay? ik you feel like shit, but maybe it wasn't meant to be. you'll find someone that appreciates your efforts, i can guarantee you.
445.165 days ago
Nov 9, 2021 - 2:03 AM
you will for certain. its too early to lose all hope, samsung
445.163 days ago
Nov 9, 2021 - 2:06 AM
hey samsung. i can assure you it wont be worth it in the long run. great times are ahead even if it seems impossible now, i promise. we're here for you, friend
445.161 days ago
Nov 9, 2021 - 2:09 AM
I never had any hope to begin with
445.161 days ago
Nov 9, 2021 - 2:09 AM
we're here for you still, samsung.
445.156 days ago
Nov 9, 2021 - 2:15 AM
445.156 days ago
Nov 9, 2021 - 2:16 AM
samsung. if you feel like you're actually going to hurt yourself, im urging you to get or call someone who you know will keep you safe. i know it can be scary, but you're gonna have to trust me on this
445.15 days ago
Nov 9, 2021 - 2:25 AM
445.149 days ago
Nov 9, 2021 - 2:27 AM
445.147 days ago
Nov 9, 2021 - 2:29 AM
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